hiraeth

 

Deep longing for something, especially one's home 

alright now lets jump onto something completely unrelated to the post title (also shoutout to miyazono for the title)

how do you pick one?

I'll give the example of me writing this post, I decided to write this post on a whim, I was about to fall asleep or at least that's what I now think I was telling myself hoping I would actually fall asleep kind of like the placebo effect was it? guess being self-medicated doesn't really work out and we do need a second opinion in the end after all. 

If you think about it that second opinion works as a reinforcer of the illusion, but this illusion, if you already aware of it how is it that it ends up working, do we secretly want the illusion to not be broken do we want it to be in effect even if it means we are lying, lying to ourselves?

Sometimes when we want to pick between two options we might go with the 'chance' option to pick one, leaving the decision to a coinflip or the simple more 'reliable' having someone select a finger from two both of which have one of the choices assigned to them,

Now the crucial part of this tactic is not the outcome but that short instant before the decision is taken where your quick thinking prowess comes into play and you finally know

know exactly what you want.

Could it be that all the constant bickering with oneself, whether or not you are the real you is because you know, you already know who you are but you refuse to accept it, because the person you really are is the person you never wished to become.

They say the first step towards self-love is acceptance, how can we accept who we are if we're not who we want to be, can we just grow and change, do people really ever change or is it just a version of their self that has become a bit better at impersonation, better at deceiving us. 

unrelated images to confuse the readers (if there are any to begin with)

also nea if you're reading this shit post, part 2 of 'that' coming tomorrow for sure.

Final part of today's shit post

Literally every thought we have is a by-product of the past, what we know about things, our very perception of the world is entirely based upon the opinions and notions of those who lived before us, they decided that the world is round, they decided that sad is bad, they decided what sounds make what words and what meaning would those words have 

just look at language, we have tons of different languages their dialects etcetera and what use is language of? we make use of language to communicate our message assuming that these messages are of great importance we stress on the proficiency of language but even after being fluent in a language when it comes down to the basics that 50 words paragraph and the 5 word line are both aimed at the same objective and will get the work done, so why is it that we need to learn to send rather complex messages when if you try everything can be broken down into something simpler,

Energy can be changed from one form to another, but it cannot be created or destroyed

no this is not a post where i prove a law of thermodynamics this is a post where i am ask you

how do you sleep knowing that everyday goes by the same way and you want to break this cycle but you don't because you are afraid of the inevitable chaos that lies beyond waiting for you.