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If you're wondering why the blog name is Supercalifragilisticexpialidotious
its because


Now, in the past I've attempted to write a blog many times, and failed every single time except for once when I had to write one for a college assignment  give it a read if you can (: 
"why try to write one in the first place though" ? 
A blog is like a web journal, I have had the fantasy of maintaining an actual journal since forever but that has never worked out in the past for multiple reasons,

- Terrible handwriting
- Careless ( would probably end up losing it)
- Slow at writing 
- Didn't have a diary of sorts to write in
- It wouldn't be safe and someone could end up reading it
- Led a boring life that did not require a journal

but today, or rather tonight since its almost 2 A.M. and I should be asleep because I have a DL test tomorrow and I don't know how to drive, I am sitting on this dumb chair with an annoying backache with this bright yet all dusty laptop screen in front of me

because

I know I still won't maintain an actual journal until I find the right one, and I already had a functioning blog which the external examiner called a 'wasted effort' since it took me more than 5 hours just to create a site where I had one post and that one post had 29 views and 1 comment :') shoutout to this
which has its own explanation of course.

You see, I have a problem well (plural) problems, not that I am special of course sure that you got problems as well, we all do.
One of my many problems is that I hold back in doing things I want to do because it feels like when others will watch you which is inevitable they will end up being all smug about it because expending minimum effort is all cool and expressing excitement for 'trivial' stuff is somewhat stupid.

Writing a blog excites me for some obscure reason and I don't even know if I used that word right 'obscure' what the fuck does it mean anyway? I enjoy typing like this so much that I don't even care much of my spelling errors and I know most of you won't even read through the blog, some of you will skim and others if I'm lucky enough will scroll down to the bottom and just leave a motivating "nice post :fire emoji: :fire emoji:" which I am totally fine with

I'm not writing to be a famous blogger some day, or improving my skills or even to get social validation, okay maybe the validation part yes, but don't we all crave it ? 
We can be all isolated, hide in the little corner of ours facing the wall not the crowd but at the same time we want to be a part of the crowd, we crave interaction, we want to be acknowledged and at the same don't want anyone to focus their attention on us 

we want to be that strand of fiber poking out of a warm ugly sweater, we want to be a part of the whole fabric contributing towards its ugliness but still poke out of it enough to draw the wearer's (still not sure if its the right word) attention and at the same time that wonderful ugly sweater is part of something beautiful, its providing warmth and comfort.
 
How things appear shouldn't really matter, your dark sunken sleep deprived eyes can be deceiving you know?


Comments

  1. Priyanshu RawatMarch 28, 2022 at 2:11 PM

    Boht Sundar

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  2. ArushiMarch 28, 2022 at 2:17 PM

    Nice post 🔥🔥

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  3. AnyoneButVartikMarch 28, 2022 at 2:20 PM

    Nice post🔥🔥

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  4. AnyoneButVartikMarch 28, 2022 at 2:22 PM

    Yeh le bhai validation 👍

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  5. SarthakMarch 28, 2022 at 9:58 PM

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  6. StrivingtobeAverageMarch 28, 2022 at 11:30 PM

    Aap bhi 😳🤝

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  7. Design DenMarch 29, 2022 at 4:45 AM

    Waah yrr pdhne pe majboor kr diya 🔥🔥

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    1. StrivingtobeAverageMarch 31, 2022 at 12:54 PM

      Lesssgoooo gorakhpur ka saport h humaare saath 🇮🇳🇮🇳🇮🇳

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  8. UnknownMarch 29, 2022 at 1:14 PM

    Stuff was too deep for my stupid brain to understand. Anyway u should get a new sweater.

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