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  Deep longing for something, especially one's home  alright now lets jump onto something completely unrelated to the post title (also shoutout to miyazono for the title) how do you pick one? I'll give the example of me writing this post, I decided to write this post on a whim, I was about to fall asleep or at least that's what I now think I was telling myself hoping I would actually fall asleep kind of like the placebo effect was it? guess being self-medicated doesn't really work out and we do need a second opinion in the end after all.  If you think about it that second opinion works as a reinforcer of the illusion, but this illusion, if you already aware of it how is it that it ends up working, do we secretly want the illusion to not be broken do we want it to be in effect even if it means we are lying, lying to ourselves? Sometimes when we want to pick between two options we might go with the 'chance' option to pick one, leaving the decision to a coinflip o...

Posting after a break of 2 days, did you all miss me?  I can't really take you through how the past few days have been but if I were to sum it up it would be the slowest few days making every second feel like a minute long where all I did was question everything in existence or rather anything my mind could comprehend (so none?) basically your average post nut clarity Tuesday only it was a weekend. I feel like we place all this importance on the weekend, postpone so much crap for the weekend because we would have more free time to do it but when the weekend is there you don't want to spend your free time doing work, no. You want to spend your time doing nothing but wallow in self-pity and have all those serious thoughts about getting your life back on track but all that ever gets you is thinking more and not the fruitful kind of thinking no you think about how you can't say you'll "get your life back on track" because it was never on track to begin with so wha...